I forgot the MOST IMPORTANT ONES: the mental ones. Can you believe that? I sure can, LOL. After reading around, I found some New Year's Resolutions that are SO much better than mine, that I have to add them to my list.
First Diana Peterfreund listed her Seven New Year's Resolutions, and I just loved her Number 7: "Live Bigger." She didn't go into detail about what it meant to her, but it reminded me of what was wrong with me this past year.
I spent a lot of time, hand on window, staring out with a feeling of desperation. I felt--still feel--locked in a cage. In an interview, Angelina mentioned that she had recently removed a tattoo of a window from her back. The reason for the tattoo? At the time, she said, she'd always be looking out windows, wanting to get out on the other side.
I SO identify with that.
She said she had it removed because now she lives "outside the window."
Whew boy. That resonates with me SO much I can't even begin to tell you. No, I'm not going to get a tattoo of a window on my back, but I am going to make this year's number one goal to Live outside the window.
Jennifer Crusie talked about her Indulgences for 2007. What a great idea, if you're not into resolutions. And Catherine Spangler at Berkley Babes blogged the Fourteen Best Resolutions I've seen so far. The ones I find most inspiring are:
1) Be happy.
2) Be joyous.
3) Be patient.
4) Be kind.
5) Take care of myself.
You see? I forgot the most important ones. True, a lot of mine will cause the above, but I lost sight of WHY I have these goals. So my top five list of the year are:
1) Live outside the window:
See above, LOL. I don't know how, but ... I'll find a way.
2) Give everything:
I want to give everything, 200% to everything I do, particularly writing. Adults are the most self-obstacled learners around. Sometimes we hold back here or there, just a little. Why? Sometimes I think it's because we're afraid that if we give our all and fail, then we're not good enough. That strategy, while usually subconscious, holds us back. I want to give my all, no matter what my fears are.
3) Ask more:
And then I want to push myself to give more. Often we impose so many self-limitations on ourselves. So many I can'ts that, frankly, are incorrect. Whenever I give my best, I want to push myself to give just a little more than I thought I could.
4) Dig deeper:
This is mostly a writing goal. When I'm reading, I want to stretch my mind to dig deeper into analysis. When I'm writing, I want to dig deeper and deeper into every character, ask the tough questions, put them in tough situations, and stretch myself.
5) Live real:
This may seem strange, since I blog anonymously. I'm not really that anonymous, though, as tons of people know who I am. I don't mind; I just want to stay anonymous enough to avoid the search engines, so that I can be honest and real online.
What I really want to do is, er ... stop being so nice. I don't want to always say the right thing, and do the nod and smile thing. I just want to be real. If I'm mad, I'll be mad. If I'm sad, I'll be sad. If I fart, well goshdarnit, I'm not going to be embarrassed about it. I just want to stop worrying what other people think, and worry more about the important things.
Tomorrow, I promise no more goals. :-) All about you, tomorrow! All about you!