Erik Ivan James gave me a very good and gentle reminder yesterday to focus on the words my heart wants to write. Very good reminder, especially from a man who can write with such heart!
He's so right, too!
It makes me wonder how I'm perceived. See, I blog to learn. I know I sometimes come off as knowing what I speak of; it's a bad quirk from teaching so long.
That doesn't mean what I write is always true. And I'm really waiting for you guys to tell me I'm wrong. I really am! I want to learn, so I don't mind changing my opinion (or defending it, really).
My writing must go up a level. It really must. I can't do that magically or by talent; I've got to shove and kick myself, push myself off cliffs and put myself in situations where I have to get better or die (well ... close enough, LOL).
So you guys, coming here, talking, and letting me conceptualize, communicate, and organize my thoughts and ideas is ... ohmigosh ... I can't even say. Thank you, thank you, thank you, from the bottom of my heart. I truly mean that.
I'm a pantser and a heart writer, believe it or not. So I come here to force my brain into analysis and to try to grasp and understand and de-mystify the mystical stuff we writers do. I know I have to study the greater writers, but I struggle with how. I struggle with picking apart what makes something work or not work in someone else's novel.
I ... er, need to get smarter.
So you know me, I'm always tackling my shortcomings head on. That's why I'm here. And of course, I seem to be here to ramble, too. :-)
Where was I? The point of this?
You guys get my technical thoughts. My heart? Well, that goes into my writing computer. My problem?
My brain works on this computer, and my heart works on the other. I can't seem to get them to work at the same time. How do you guys do it? How?
Maybe it'll have to be the same as I am with music. I can't really apply something to the piece I learn it in, not if it's a big technique or big change. I have to learn it so well that it becomes ingrained, second nature, and so I can do it without thinking. So I have to pull this analysis out of ... er, and then I have to stuff it into my subconscious.
I can't think and do at the same time.
How do you do it?