So I love the way Aimless Writer uses eighteen-wheelers in her short story (how short is flash fiction?), A Short Story to Nowhere. And she can paint, too, gorgeous flowers. I know painting is just another art, another skill, but it’s one that stuns me every time, one that makes me just think Wow! I could never do that!
I’ve been obsessively coming up with projects to keep me busy at the beginning of next year, trying to schedule my schedule, shorten my sleep time, and figure out how to fit more into a day with no partner at home. This is turning out to be a good thing, because I’m actually starting to look forward to the next few months. Busy is crazy, but busy is fun, too. And if I can stay busy enough, time will fly, right?
Tonight I was working on a little scholarship thingamabob, and reading over someone’s application. Boy, does she have her sh*t together. I love (most) high schoolers and college-age students. They’re at such a cool time of life. Infinite possibilities, plenty of time to live and make mistakes, and something else about them. They’re not quite sure who they are yet, and I love watching them become. It’s good to remember to continually explore oneself and the world around.
Anyway, my point was, as soon as I read her application, I was possessed by this calculating. I immediately thought, okay, two more years, and I’m going to recommend this girl for ... and ... and I need to tell ... about this amazing girl.
What’s funny, is that I’d read about many other students and did not have that reaction. What’s even funnier, is this girl has her stuff together so well, that she doesn’t even need my help. It’s clear she’s going to get where she wants to go whether anyone helps her or not.
I don’t know why I’m possessed by this need to tell the important people about this girl I don’t know who is so on track she doesn’t even need my help. Maybe it’s some sense of justice. If she doesn’t fly to the top of her goals, something’s wrong with the universe.
When you have a goal, sometimes it’s better to look up to the top of the mountain, chart your course, and then keep your eyes firmly fixed on only the ground a step or two or three ahead. Maybe look up now and then to make sure no course corrections are needed, but other than that, keeping your eye on the next step is often better than keeping your eye on the mountain top.
Amazing how far you get that way, and how quickly.
Anyway, I was thinking about last year. I can’t remember ever ending a year with a major goal unfinished, but that’s how it is this year. Two of them, actually, but I may yet finish one. I may yet finish both, but that would be a bit of a shock.
I’m a little disappointed, but I’m charting a course correction.
What about you? Are you taking stock? Any disappointments? Not to be a downer, so what are you most proud of this last year?