My brain, evidently, shuts down when I’m eating healthy. It’s very strange, life without the food I’m sensitive to. I have all this energy, but I don’t know what to do with it. It’s like being in a foreign body, a little uncomfortable. I don’t know how to think in this body.
You must think me strange, but this is true.
No wheat or dairy or sugar makes me feel incessantly happy. It’s really like being high, I suppose, but I never got into the whole drug thing. I suppose I just need to adjust to the feeling. I didn’t particularly feel unhappy before--I was just, normal.
Do normal-normal people feel like this all the time?
It’s very strange, that we humans crave the familiar so much we’re willing to be unhealthy and less happy just so we can keep things the same.
I just finished The Little Prince (thanks for mentioning it, Erica!), and like all good stories, I immediately want to read it again. No, I actually wished I could have a child so I could read it to her every week. (Which is, of course, the best reason to have a child, LOL ...)
One of the many lessons The Little Prince teaches is that things and people become meaningful by how we care for them. And the flower we love is different from all the others, because of what’s invisible inside.
(And since I’m still dying for chocolate and sweets, I’m going to be lame and bring this back to food.)
All the food I can’t eat, like hot pudding and cheesy pizza and creamed chipped beef, have so much meaning because they were given meaning at some point in my life. What’s invisible inside is like a soul of memories I’ve put into my beloved foods.
So now, when I feel like I want a cup of hot chocolate with fresh, homemade whipped cream dolloped in the middle, I need to pair those feelings of being loved and cared for with a cup of miso soup. Or a pot of tea.
My brain really isn’t working yet in this condition, is it?
Here’s a recipe for Oatmeal Raisin Cookies that has nothing I can’t eat:
3 Bananas, mashed
2 Cups Oats
1/2 C. Raisins (or any dried fruit, chocolate chips, nuts, the kitchen sink, whatever’s around ... I sometimes use more than 1/2 cup.)
1/4 C. Olive Oil
1/4 C. Almond Milk (or soy milk, or rice milk ... or real milk, if you’re allowed.)
1/4 teaspoon Vanilla
Mix all, let stand for 5 minutes.
Spoon onto cookie sheet and bake at 350 degrees for 15 - 20 minutes.
Infuse with love and memories.