I was trolling the internet, looking for quotes for the recital program and ideas for awards (I googled old-fashioned virtues, LOL. I'm pretty old-fashioned in some respects.), and I came across the mention that George Lucas was completely broke by the time Star Wars hit the theaters, having had to use mostly his money because so many people didn't believe in his vision.
It's not an original story, certainly. (And my source was not much of one, so I may have the details wrong; feel free to correct me.)
But I was wondering: where does that come from? What kept him, and all the others like him, going?
Is it faith and belief that their vision will become profitable?
Is it an attitude of damn the consequences, I just have to do this?
Is it an inner certainty that they are on the right path?
Are they so focused on their target, they don't see the rocks falling around them?
Is it some life mission encoded in their DNA, which allows them to take no other path?
There are some things that not even the most positive human being can manufacture. There have been some things in my life I've had no doubt about. And those beliefs were not manufactured, they weren't pep-talked into existence.
Just a bunch of questions and thoughts. I rarely tell my students "you can do it." I have to SHOW them, PROVE it to them. People just don't believe stuff like that. It has to come from somewhere inside.
I don't know. I'm just thinking. And procrastinating more work. I took a three hour nap this morning, but that's all the sleep I've had in the past two days. I'm not going to get much than that tonight.
Back to it, I guess. I keep fantasizing about spending all day Tuesday in bed. Reading.