Do you ever get sick of your voice? I mean, your writing voice. I looked at a comment I made the other day, and the ridiculous thought popped in my head: "Ohmigosh, that's sounds like me. Ick."
Sometimes I hate my writing voice. I'm going to say this wrong, but my writing voice strikes me a bit stronger than I really am. (If you're all shaking your head and saying, no, your voice isn't at all strong, that's okay. Just keep it to yourself, LOL.) :-P
And it's not so much that, as sometimes I just get sick of my voice, day in, day out. Maybe that's why Nora Roberts' voice changed SO much over the course of her career. She's a completely different writer now.
It's great writing. Except sometimes I sit down and I want the old Nora, and I expect it from the new Nora, and it doesn't live up to my expectations. I think I need to pull out some of the old Noras and read them, and view the new Nora as a different writer entirely.
Do you ever make fun of yourself? Like this week, I've been writing in 20 point font so I can see what I'm writing and see my typos. Then when I converted it back 12 point font to send it in, I noticed all my paragraphs were really short.
I was like, WTF? I write my paragraphs by SHAPE, thus if I enlarge font paragraphs must get shorter? How idiotic is that?
Do you ever feel your sentences are the same? Like, sure, I vary my sentences. I don't just do noun-verb, although lately I have way more noun-verbs than I'm comfortable. (I saw four in a row yesterday! I never do that!) I start with prepositional whatevers and vary structure.
But I feel limited. It starts to feel like I'm taking three or four basic sentence rhythms and just cycling them.
Do you ever get sick of your themes? I was thinking the other day that all my stories are the same. Okay, they're completely different. But they're also the same.
In Schenkerian Analysis of western music, Schenker proposed, simplistically put, that all music could be boiled down, no matter how long, to Tonic-Dominant-Tonic. (So imagine a twenty-minute piece of thousands of chords boiled down, in essence, to three chords.)
I know my stuff is different. I'm pretty sure. But the essence feels the same. I'm starting to feel like I've written it all before.
Do you ever cycle out of coming up with story ideas? I remember I had two files just BULGING, between both of them, with over two hundred ideas. Sometimes they were just titles, sometimes a sentence, but they were two hundred different novellas and/or short stories. I came up with them all the first year of writing, and then they trickled down to now and then.
At some point, I just stopped coming up with ideas. I got out of the habit. I would just choose one.
Well, see above: sometimes the interesting part isn't so much what you write about, but how you develop it.
Sometimes, I enjoy taking the most boring idea on earth and trying to make it an interesting story. Same with cliches, or overdone ideas. I don't know if I succeed, but I enjoy it.
So I stopped coming up with ideas.
I've been coming up with ideas again, though. I like it.
Do you ever fear you're getting worse, rather than better? We push ourselves to change, but do you ever worry you've gone over the edge? Do you ever worry you've suddenly lost it? Do you ever worry that this is going to be the one where people will go: what was she thinking? What happened to her? She can't write anymore!
So what about you? Do you ever... ? And how's the writing going?
(It's not obvious I'm in the middle, is it? I mean, you wouldn't know that just from the above post, would you?)