I've heard and seen "Don't get your hopes up!" a lot. It's around all the time. Oftentimes, those who really want something will preface it by saying, "but I'm not getting my hopes up!" as if that would be a Bad Thing, as if that would be something to be embarrassed about.
It looks like I'm going to give my foot another go with another doctor in the next week or two. I've been telling myself I'm not getting my hopes up.
And yesterday, I realized, I'm totally deluding myself. I'm re-learning all my forms, I'm lifting weights, I'm doing yoga, and I'm doing this treadmill sort of thing where you don't have to actually walk. (I don't know what it's called.)
I also scheduled my lessons this year so that I can make TKD class three times a week.
If all that's not "hopes up," then I don't know what is.
I sat down with myself yesterday and tried to talk myself down, and realized this is the happiest I've been in a year. I might have a foot I can use in a couple weeks! Gosh, it would just mean the world to me.
Most of my loves have become my businesses. Which is fine. But TKD is the only "pure" fun hobby I've ever loved.
In fact, my hopes are so high, I haven't called the doctor yet. This is the best time I've had in ages. If I go to the doctor and he doesn't fix my foot, we'll be back to square one.
So why not enjoy the "hopes up" phase?
I will call the doctor tomorrow, truly. But still. I'm going to milk this hopes up phase for as long as it lasts.
Y'all wouldn't mind praying or sending healing thoughts or whatever that he can fix my foot easily and cheaply, would you? Gosh, it would make my decade if I could get back to Taekwondo. I don't care if it hurts a bit as long as it's not injuring or weakening my foot. I just want to get back to TKD really, really badly. Please, universe? Pretty please? With love and sugar on top?
Hey, what about you?
What have you secretly gotten your hopes up about, lately? And do you sorta hide them, a little bit shy about sharing them? Or maybe afraid to break the spell? Do you keep your hopes a secret, sometimes?