27 more days until DH gets back. Yay! I'm really talking about writing, even though it might not sound like it at first. :-)
Absence makes the heart grow fonder, right?
Sometimes, when you spend time with someone day in and day out, you sort of forget you love them. The things you love about them become a little less prominent, and the things that don't matter seem to grow bigger and bigger.
With DH gone, I remember all the things I love about him. And, like, him farting on me while we're sleeping spooned becomes something I miss. I notice all the things he does, and the things I appreciate about him.
I believe I'm having the same experience with writing.
I've tried so many NY ideas, and none of them have grabbed me enough to get written. It's been a mental struggle. I keep trying to find reasons and excuses.
What surprised me, the last few weeks, is how much I love writing what pseudo writes. I love it. I'm having a blast!
I'm finishing two books in two different series, and I'm DYING to write the next book in each series already.
I always felt I'd get sick of a series. I'm on books 4 in both of them, and I just LOVE them. I always felt I'd run out of stories in a series, but... not in the slightest.
I am totally in love with them. Totally.
I knew I enjoyed it.
I had no idea I loved it. In fact, I was pretty sure I was sick of what pseudo writes.
So color me surprised.
It's not like I'm abandoning NY ideas: I'll keep mining my mind, and one of these days some are going to grab me, I'm positive of it.
It's just me to want to be "successful," to strive to be the best, the top tier, whatever. (Whether I get there is another story, LOL!) If NY is the place to be a "winner," then I want to get there. It's just who I am, I'm afraid.
But the last two weeks, I realized: I love what I write. I totally forgot. I love it passionately. Love it, love it, love it.
I honestly don't know how I'm ever going to sync up those two parts of who I am, those two loves and drives.
Have you ever forgotten you loved something? Have you ever been surprised you loved something?